I look for linearity in my life

I look for linearity in my life

The things that fall together in some geometrical symmetry

It looks like a Rorschach painting

Always colorful, but just when the lines want to converge

They squiggle away in a different direction.

It would be easy if there was a control panel

To guide the drone along

I followed the expected paths, dutiful and diligent

And things never went haywire, they just took divergent turns

I learned to stop with unrealistic expectations and accept what is

I watch the powerful passionate dances of the young ones

I remember what it felt like then

The need to go for the bungee jump, test the boundaries

Now I am a boundary

I am not running on empty, I am not the Red Queen

I still feel free and light and crazy inside sometimes

I hate my palpable caution

I still inhale the mornings

I still relish the night